My Last Hours at Panama

I realized just three days ago that I were to leave my country to get back to my job at Carnival Cruise Lines (USA). So I ve been so busy doing my bags and getting ready (keep in mind, that traveling abroad is never an easy task) My parents are sooo sad, mom is already missing me and so is dad...my sista is sort of happy in a way, she inherited my brand new cell phone and my disc man...lol! little sisters!! I think I will miss my family so much, I came back a month and a half from USA and Ive learned to love them in a new way. To have them so far away is hard and sad. Anyway, I told my friends about my sudden departing and they got surprised. Ariel who is not very affective and open was like "are u serious?" he couldnt believe it and in a way I think both of us got sad cuz I told him about it today and he is outside of the city so we wont see each other. Deyda and Sandra my very good friends from church agreed to go out after church service saturday night but something went wrong and couldnt meet, indeed I talked with them and we were very sad we could not be able to see each other again until I come back...shoot! i am getting an emotional minute... lol. Anyway its been so fast that I didnt even had time to visit my only living grandpa. I will call him just before taking the plane. He is very sick, and what get me sadder is the fact of probably not seeing him again alive.
To make things worse today I had the opportunity to see how difficult and uncomfortable and even dangerous is for a friend to go to church...its so far and she lives in a very dangerous zone, so when she gets back from church late in the night, she is in danger of being harmed by a gangster and EVEN SO, she wants she needs (according to herself) to go to church... I live only 17 min away from same church, I can take a bus ( I dont have a car yet) and get there, but I wont do it cuz I dont like to take buses, so I my parents cant go for any reason, then I cant go too. I dont live in a so dangerous neighboorhod, I am not that far away from church, I am not that poor like her, and I am just not grateful for all those blessings God has given to me!!!! Shame on me! But I realized that bymyself which is good and repented and told My Jesus that I would be doing more to be grateful and more to reach ppl for Him. He is so good! all the time, he is merciful, loyal to me and He deserves my dedication to serve Him and grow in Him.
Other than that, I had a great time with God today at church, worshiping Him and in conmmunion with Him! God is Awesome, He rocks"