Monday, August 21, 2006

Learning to Walk a Steady Life

During the past several days, I had been struggling big time with my daily walk with God, and that I could tell because of how many spiritual battles consecutiverly I had been loosing. It seems like whenever you are in the higuest point of your relationship with God, then like a rollercoaster you start descending fast till you realize how bad you are. Spiritual rollercoasters has been the story of my life, story the now more than ever, I feel God has determined to change to a different story in my life. After a lot of thinking, I have come to understand that one of God’s divine specific purpose for my life in me being on the ships is that He wants me to grow mature in certain areas where I am weak and tend to be my rollercoasters and the best way was to take me out of my comfort zone, namely, my country and my family and put me in a place where it is only me and God, no one else. How long more? Only God knows, but one thing I know, it will depend on how much I trust and let God guide me and how much obedient to Him I am. I realized that being home, it was easy to not live up to the Spirit standards, a life full of fruits and a life of holiness. I guess, I would feel crappy for I was letting God down, but in my persistant rebellion it could pass days, weeks and even months in that state of sinful life, apart from God, without taking action and repenting. And then again, after some time and help from my parents and friends I would decide it was enough of that kind of life and I would repent and receive God’s forgiveness and then again after some time would come down. Well, on the ships, being down for any amount of days, is something really really dangerous. I have learned that, the hard way. Sin is breathable in every corner of a cruise ship. It can swallow you in a matter of seconds. Only then I realized, that I can’t let my guard down for a second. And whenever I had, the worst days of my life had come to pass. Days like those, I feel extremely crappy, down, wondering the reason of my existance, and even doubting about my true identity in Christ. The devil had won and he knows it, he had me in his grip and he won’t let me go until and only when I lift up my eyes to Jesus to help me out. I guess this would be the second important purpose of my life at this stage of it. And when this one is growing, then the other purpose of my life which is to reach as many people as possible to God, becomes easy.

32 comments:

Anonymous said...

Do you find me hot ?

You can see my pics here.

[url=http://sexscreener.org/p/random/1992]My Profile[/url]

Anonymous said...

What do you think ? Do I look hot ?

You can find my pics here

[url=http://sexscreener.org/p/random/1992]My Profile[/url]

Anonymous said...

Your blog keeps getting better and better! Your older articles are not as good as newer ones you have a lot more creativity and originality now keep it up!

Anonymous said...

I just found the website who writes about
many
home business opportunity

If you want to know more here it is
home based business opportunity
www.home-businessreviews.com

Anonymous said...

adult teaching validating bodies [url=http://loveepicentre.com/]singles holidays[/url] single parent online dating http://loveepicentre.com/ dating questions

Anonymous said...

toshiba laptop batteries [url=http://www.hqlaptopbatteries.com/-m40-laptopbatterymodel783.html]best laptops[/url] AC Adapter http://www.hqlaptopbatteries.com/battery-9300-5415-batterytype1.html Professional Laptop Battery Wholesale Site
laptop brands [url=http://www.hqlaptopbatteries.com/-320ct-laptopbatterymodel211.html]excellent laptop battery[/url] Laptop Batteries Wholesale http://www.hqlaptopbatteries.com/-415-laptopbatterymodel115.html Buy Cheap Laptop Battery
laptop accessories [url=http://www.hqlaptopbatteries.com/battery-5502wlmi-batterytype1.html]hp laptop batteries[/url] hp laptop batteries http://www.hqlaptopbatteries.com/-2100cds-laptopbatterymodel231.html laptop review

Anonymous said...

Good brief and this post helped me alot in my college assignement. Thank you seeking your information.

Anonymous said...

dental terms [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/innopran-xl.htm]innopran xl[/url] lyrics for smoke on the water by deep purple http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/dilantin.htm new years diet http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/frozen--energy-and-libido-enhancer-.htm
family and medical leave act southwest airlines [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/zyvox.htm]zyvox[/url] penis size image [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/viagra-super-active-plus.htm]latissimus dorsi muscle[/url]

Anonymous said...

adult weight loss camp [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/norvasc.htm]norvasc[/url] pill id g 00036 http://usadrugstoretoday.com/categories/blood-pressure.htm university medical center princeton nj http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/celexa.htm
do many men stimulate their prostate [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/cialis-professional.htm]cialis professional[/url] youth and drugs [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/categories/anti-allergic-asthma.htm]free sun medical dictionary[/url]

Anonymous said...

http://poow.in/medrol
[url=http://poow.in/letrozole/letrozole-increase-dht]bad effects of prohibite drugs[/url] metanase drug [url=http://poow.in/mefenamic]mefenamic[/url]
drug abuse during chemotherapy http://poow.in/risperidone/risperidone-withdrawal-eps
[url=http://poow.in/mestinon/myasthenia-gravis-the-drug-mestinon]tebya v tbilisi karoshi esli ni drug xatiabi karoshi znakomi[/url] why pharmaceutical drugs are harmful [url=http://poow.in/xanax/buy-really-cheap-xanax-online]buy really cheap xanax online[/url]
chromatography in pharmacy http://poow.in/mestinon/mestinon-syrup
[url=http://poow.in/kidney/kidney-fat-index]rash over counter drugs stephen[/url] new drug for rls [url=http://poow.in/metoclopramide/metoclopramide-bad]metoclopramide bad[/url] certification drug counseling orlando florida [url=http://poow.in/levaquin]levaquin[/url]

Anonymous said...

autobot 1002 dodge neon emblem http://autoexpress.in/mercury/types/of/mercury/thermometers auto repair businesses for sale
[url=http://autoexpress.in/saleen/saleen/corvette]outside temperature gauge automobile[/url] diecast automobile models [url=http://autoexpress.in/saturn/royal/doulton/saturn]royal doulton saturn[/url]
ffden automobile engine efficiency http://autoexpress.in/saleen
[url=http://autoexpress.in/buell/buell/instrument/lubricant/msds]mercedes benz verkaufer[/url] use of computer in automobile industry [url=http://autoexpress.in/rally/motorcycle/rally/scorecards]motorcycle rally scorecards[/url]
fuel capacity 1994 volkswagen golf diesel http://autoexpress.in/porsche
[url=http://autoexpress.in/bugatti/bugatti/type/40/tourer/1927/price]real time gps auto tracker[/url] cheap auto liability insurance [url=http://autoexpress.in/radiator/afco/aluminum/radiator]afco aluminum radiator[/url]

Anonymous said...

james brown clothesline http://topcitystyle.com/on-sale-page37.html affordable designer drawer pulls [url=http://topcitystyle.com/52-shirts-size3.html]muslim woman clothes[/url] renaissance shoes wedding
http://topcitystyle.com/green-white-on-sale-color184.html peacock clothes stores [url=http://topcitystyle.com/grey-black-women-apos-s-long-sleeve-tops-color177.html]old fashion candy[/url]

Anonymous said...

nude amateur mexican women http://theporncollection.in/gay-video/gay-nudist
[url=http://theporncollection.in/porn-dvd/gay-porn-free-video-samples]gay rough neck porn[/url] anal instructions [url=http://theporncollection.in/lesbian-porn/lesbian-amateur-sex-videos]lesbian amateur sex videos[/url]
dildo battle http://theporncollection.in/lubricant/resorts-couples-incision-leave-lubricant-recommend-single
[url=http://theporncollection.in/lesbian-xxx/lesbian-tgirl]hentai porno pictures[/url] amy from her first anal sex [url=http://theporncollection.in/free-hentai/su-kaolla-hentai]su kaolla hentai[/url]
free full length streaming amateur porn rough http://theporncollection.in/lesbian-sex/gay-and-lesbian-authors
[url=http://theporncollection.in/porn-galleries/sex-free-porn]adult red footie pajamas[/url] adult auto surfing [url=http://theporncollection.in/gay-man/free-gay-male-lovers-passion-porn-photo-gallery]free gay male lovers passion porn photo gallery[/url]
download sexy videos http://theporncollection.in/lesbian-video/sailor-moon-lesbian-hentai
[url=http://theporncollection.in/porn-girl/bonde-co-ed-porn]penthouse adult toys[/url] white in black porn [url=http://theporncollection.in/hentai-sex/sonic-hentai-by-kio]sonic hentai by kio[/url]

Anonymous said...

adult french nihgtys http://xwe.in/thongs/thongs-whaltail
[url=http://xwe.in/adult-video/disabled-adult-products]bbw xxx uploads[/url] free dildo demonstrations [url=http://xwe.in/bondage/natalie-bassingthwaighte-bondage]natalie bassingthwaighte bondage[/url]
anal justice 2 translated http://xwe.in/ass-video
[url=http://xwe.in/ass-sex/cocksucking-ass-to-mouth-teens]anal ramming dildo penetrations[/url] silicone lubricant dry type [url=http://xwe.in/thongs/ashley-and-mary-kate-in-thongs]ashley and mary kate in thongs[/url]
taekwondo sexy men http://xwe.in/archive-adult/easyrider-stroller-for-adult
[url=http://xwe.in/adult-video/adult-children-healing-from-divorce]sexy lingerie without hands covering[/url] akiba hentai 2 online [url=http://xwe.in/girl-anal/anal-cosmetic-surgery]anal cosmetic surgery[/url]
teen anal porn movies http://xwe.in/fetish/fetish-dallas-texas
[url=http://xwe.in/condom/recycling-condoms]briana from her first anal sex[/url] orgasm amateur video [url=http://xwe.in/shemales/spanish-shemales-anal]spanish shemales anal[/url]

Anonymous said...

he revolutionized the shoe industry by inventing a machine which firmly attached shoes to soles http://www.thefashionhouse.us/-wallet-men-category78.html top fashion design school [url=http://www.thefashionhouse.us/multi-color-women-color180.html]articles on fashion history[/url] nashville star usa chanel
http://www.thefashionhouse.us/black-multicolored-women-color63.html pictures of mens and womens shoes from the medieval times [url=http://www.thefashionhouse.us/on-sale-page5.html]working conditions for being a fashion designer[/url]

Anonymous said...

causes of high blood pressures in heart failure [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/categories/gastro-intestinal.htm]gastro intestinal[/url] national health care statistics restraints in acute care http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/fluoxetine.htm
why did the great depression start [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/atarax.htm]atarax[/url] vitamin acne toung [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/dramamine.htm ]nutritional deficiencies cause of hair loss in women [/url] international journal of dental hyiene
blood pressure flucuates [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/medrol.htm]medrol[/url] myspace heart name codes http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/ophthacare.htm
diabetic age [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/mentat.htm]mentat[/url] refusal of chemotherapy breast cancer [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/propecia.htm ]where do you put the element calcium in your home [/url] blood quantam native

Anonymous said...

Just want to say what a great blog you got here!
I've been around for quite a lot of time, but finally decided to show my appreciation of your work!

Thumbs up, and keep it going!

Cheers
Christian, iwspo.net

Anonymous said...

gucci handbag http://luxefashion.us/dolce-amp-gabbana-tank-top-beige-item410.html discount fashion clothing women [url=http://luxefashion.us/hoodies-page3.html]chanel pearls[/url] ideas and patterns for making baby clothes in fleece
http://luxefashion.us/l-tops-shirts-with-colar-size7.html polo ralph lauren underwear [url=http://luxefashion.us/xxl-shirts-size8.html]online clothes shopping websites[/url]

Anonymous said...

heart attack fluid in lungs [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/acai-natural-energy-boost.htm]acai natural energy boost[/url] high profile breast implants nc http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/erythromycin.htm
stress fracture of upper leg [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/buspar.htm]buspar[/url] fda pharmaceutical license pdf info [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/categories/arthrite.htm ]razzles gum [/url] aging and kidney function
woodlands dental texas [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/categories/antivirale.htm]antivirale[/url] weekend to end breast cancer http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/aciphex.htm
modern bosnia and herzegovina medicine [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/himcolin.htm]himcolin[/url] big penis club the hung jury [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/augmentin.htm ]galvanized products health risks [/url] drug treatment for paranoia

Anonymous said...

cheap dyeable shoes wedding http://luxefashion.us/dolce-amp-gabbana-shirts-brand2.html rhinestone shoes wedding [url=http://luxefashion.us/armani-accessories-brand8.html]best fashion blogs[/url] research questionnaire about factors in selecting fashion brand
http://luxefashion.us/dsquared-pirates-of-the-caribbean-t-shirt-for--item1967.html zulu clothes [url=http://luxefashion.us/men]lauren bergfeld[/url]

Anonymous said...

short health article [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/estrace.htm]estrace[/url] medical employees retention incentives http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/viagra-soft-flavoured.htm
depression and drug abuse [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/ceftin.htm]ceftin[/url] medical dictionary free [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/tenormin.htm ]drug abuse slogan [/url] online stress test
gum bleeding this morning above tooth [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/brahmi.htm]brahmi[/url] laser vaginal rejuvenation new york http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/erexor.htm
penis enlargement exersises [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/rogaine-2-.htm]rogaine 2 [/url] skin infections caused by staphylococcus aureus [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/pamelor.htm ]blood flow through the body [/url] arch drug rehab in new york city

Anonymous said...

aig travel assist http://xwl.in/cruises/jungle-cruises budget travel tour
[url=http://xwl.in/vacation-packages/best-vacation-packages-to-disneyworld-resorts]pei travel[/url] travel treatment of bowl upsets [url=http://xwl.in/cruise/best-kid-friendly-cruise-ships]best kid friendly cruise ships[/url]
australian government travel warnings http://xwl.in/tours/everglades-tours
[url=http://xwl.in/vacation-packages/northern-nj-vacation-packages]green bean casserole travel[/url] bereavement travel [url=http://xwl.in/disneyland/dining-at-disneyland]dining at disneyland[/url]
cheap travel multitrip insurance http://xwl.in/travel/travel-and-tourism-awards premier travel inn bricket wood [url=http://xwl.in/airlines/philippine-airlines]philippine airlines[/url]

Anonymous said...

men shoes http://www.thefashionhouse.us/calvin-klein-women-brand40.html scotch and soda fashion [url=http://www.thefashionhouse.us/on-sale-leather-big-bags-type2.html]wholesale replica chanel handbags[/url] designer evening gowns for low prices
http://www.thefashionhouse.us/46-classic-denim-size4.html boat shoes [url=http://www.thefashionhouse.us/turquoise-casual-tops-color85.html]laurence vincent legendary brands review book[/url]

Anonymous said...

http://xwv.in/labetalol/labetalol/congestive/heart/failure
[url=http://xwv.in/osteoporosis/osteoporosis/drug/efficacy]shoppers drugs mart[/url] label online pharmacy [url=http://xwv.in/ketorolac/side/effects/of/ketorolac]side effects of ketorolac[/url]
what is the price of aids drugs http://xwv.in/pamelor/pamelor/information
[url=http://xwv.in/acomplia/acomplia/us/customs/and/border/patrol]sutan drug[/url] safety of breathadine medicine for prevention of preterm labor [url=http://xwv.in/weight-loss/statistics/for/successful/weight/loss/women/studies/indicate]statistics for successful weight loss women studies indicate[/url]
wyoming state board of pharmacy http://xwv.in/weight-loss/hcg/for/weight/loss/problems
[url=http://xwv.in/oxybutynin/oxybutynin/chloride/5mg]preferred plus pharmacy[/url] chapel hill pharmacy middletown [url=http://xwv.in/kidney/kidney/disease/atn]kidney disease atn[/url] sylvester stallone australia drugs [url=http://xwv.in/osteoporosis/medical/osteoporosis]medical osteoporosis[/url]

Anonymous said...

columbia shoes sale http://luxefashion.us/leopard-print-casual-tops-color9.html emily deschanel [url=http://luxefashion.us/t-shirts-for-men-versace-category40.html]ralph lauren upholstery fabric[/url] manchester designer outlets
http://luxefashion.us/54-outwear-size9.html nike shoes store [url=http://luxefashion.us/ugg-women-brand5.html]designer bath towels[/url]

Anonymous said...

go racing http://pqx.in/bugatti/bugatti/p110 automobile salvage cars for sale
[url=http://pqx.in/isuzu/isuzu/of/cleves]dodge mirrors[/url] automobile tire pump [url=http://pqx.in/hyundai/cabin/air/filter/for/2006/hyundai/azera]cabin air filter for 2006 hyundai azera[/url]
how to restore a 1969 volkswagen bug http://pqx.in/bentley/san/francisco/regis/capital/wife/children/hillsborough/bentley
[url=http://pqx.in/buick/buick/encleve]premiere auto haus[/url] volkswagen powered trikes [url=http://pqx.in/martin]martin[/url]
how to save your status in grand theft auto 1 http://pqx.in/mercury
[url=http://pqx.in/bentley/bentley/bear]camshaft position sensor how it works neon 2000 dodge[/url] john brownell racing 2007 [url=http://pqx.in/isuzu/champion/isuzu/gulf/fwy]champion isuzu gulf fwy[/url]

Anonymous said...

lease prices e class mercedes http://xwm.in/peugeot/peugeot-406-manual ohio automobile association of america
[url=http://xwm.in/yamaha/yamaha-dvr-s150-receiver]support joint auto[/url] mercedes soza [url=http://xwm.in/audi/moffit-audi]moffit audi[/url]
most fuel effiecent automobile http://xwm.in/saleen/twin-turbo-saleen-mustang
[url=http://xwm.in/plymouth/plymouth-brockton-bus-ma]auto accidents reports milwaukee 1 19 2008[/url] lowest aerodynamic coefficient automobile [url=http://xwm.in/audi/moffit-audi]moffit audi[/url]
pneumatique automobile http://xwm.in/fuel/fuel-gauge-repair-jeep-pump
[url=http://xwm.in/oldsmobile/oldsmobile-code-420]auto immune advocates[/url] parts bumper 2007 dodge [url=http://xwm.in/oldsmobile/oldsmobile-achieva-sc]oldsmobile achieva sc[/url]

Anonymous said...

lottery grants http://lwv.in/poker-online/casino-royale-poker-set riverwind casino in oklahoma
[url=http://lwv.in/bingo/playing-bingo-markham-ontario]topeka casinos[/url] hard reset blackjack [url=http://lwv.in/bingo/bingo-dog]bingo dog[/url]
which states participate in the powerball lottery http://lwv.in/casino-online/silverstar-casino
[url=http://lwv.in/poker-online/australian-pub-poker]blackjack system best on line casino[/url] gambling and luck in buddhism [url=http://lwv.in/online-casino/free-no-deposit-casino]free no deposit casino[/url]
elgin casino http://lwv.in/slot/how-to-win-money-at-a-slot-machine-everytime casino confidential [url=http://lwv.in/lottery/minnesota-state-lottery]minnesota state lottery[/url]

Anonymous said...

rha health services [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/emsam.htm]emsam[/url] lactose fermenting bacteria http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/kamasutra-superthin-condoms.htm mineral rights landsmen http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/ed-discount-pack-1.htm
the chemical diet [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/products/aristocort.htm]aristocort[/url] bipolar depression stigma manic [url=http://usadrugstoretoday.com/categories/general-de-salud.htm]preventive medicine[/url]

Anonymous said...

movie theaters arlington va [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_into_the_storm/]into the storm[/url] free music from the movie the wizz http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_due_occhi_diabolici/ tv reporter nude movie
the day after abc movie [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_sharpes_battle/]sharpes battle[/url] free japanese torture sex movie http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_made/ lip service movie
how to copy dvd home movie to windows movie maker [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_new_rose_hotel/]new rose hotel[/url] the making of jfk movie
xacti digital movie c1 [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_scrooge/]scrooge[/url] poseidon movie http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_college/ what kind of gun did dirty harry have in the movie
movie theaters in norwood [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_fear_x/]fear x[/url] the illusionist movie http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_the_meerkats/ the king from cars the movie

Anonymous said...

mankato movie theater listings [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_lost_highway/]lost highway[/url] images of athidi movie http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_fashions_of/ disney all star movie
red dwarf movie [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_american_son/]american son[/url] telugu movie torrents http://moviestrawberry.com/hqmoviesbygenres/download-genre_sci-fi-movies/?page=4 local movie shows
movie no looking back ed burns [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_pocahontas_ii_journey_to_a_new_world/]pocahontas ii journey to a new world[/url] lookout movie
potter flash movie [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_love_liza/]love liza[/url] movie de ja vu http://moviestrawberry.com/hqmoviesbygenres/download-genre_crime-movies/?page=15 differences in john smith and the movie
russian movie the delegation [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_humboldt_county/]humboldt county[/url] adult porn free movie http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_when_worlds_collide/ movie theatres toronto

Anonymous said...

movie stream links [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_gorillas_in_the_mist_the_story_of_dian_fossey/]gorillas in the mist the story of dian fossey[/url] new freddy kruger movie http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_hot_wheels_highway_35_world_race/ se7en movie pictures
buy movie darwin awards [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_the_legend_of_god_s_gun/]the legend of god s gun[/url] hercules movie cast http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_dana_carvey_squatting_monkeys_tell_no_lies/ mice movie
movie maker scott [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_the_secret_saturdays/]the secret saturdays[/url] eastgate movie theater in east alton
amelie movie poster [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_the_last_kiss/]the last kiss[/url] the war movie http://moviestrawberry.com/easy-downloads/letter_M/?page=11 download videos from youtube to windows movie maker
amature porn movie [url=http://moviestrawberry.com/films/film_midnight_express/]midnight express[/url] ogallala nebraska movie theatre http://moviestrawberry.com/hqmoviesbyyear/year_2000_high-quality-movies/ search the internet movie database